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hey all, haven't written on here in a reall really long time but am feeling in a bad place again and need to vent to someone, anyone.....

There is a new boy I like...we've seen each other 2 weekends in a row and we made loose arrangements to do something this evening but I haven't heard from him yet and I'm spiralling. ED wise I'm ok I think, though I don't want to be, it's so messed up that I want to be worse again. I hate the way I feel and look right now, I need to be les than I am. A girl who moved into my flatshare a few months ago also has ED related problems and like me, quite a history of it. We talk about things sometimes and I hope it will bring back my problems back but it hasn't so far.

Anyway, I really really like this guy and I wish he would call and sort out this evening. I bet he doesn't and I'll be so depressed all of this evening. It's 4pm and I'm still in bed, that is bad for me, when i don't get out of bed I get in the most pissey moods. I so badly want to call him but I sent him a text message last night and had no reply, I dont feel I can contact him again because it looks like i'm hassling him. boo hoo
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On June 7th, 2008 11:16 pm (UTC), lovelineny commented:
a honey.. 4 pm, the night is young :) chin up!
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On June 8th, 2008 02:21 pm (UTC), cadburycrazed replied:
hey hun, thank you so much for the chat earlier on on msn, i really needed it. i'm taking a leaf out of your book and starting up on my journal again. i hope you are ok, having caught up on your journal you seem to be going through some bad times again. i wish there was something i could do to help.

that guy never called, i dont expect him to. i am such a loser in love, i repel all men. i suck
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