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what an odd day. i'm in work and a huge bouquet of flowers arrives for me...from my ex who i am seeing later that night. the card reads "looking forward to tonight! x"

spend the rest of the day hugely confused about the meaning behind the flowers

go to meet him, have a drink. his housemates show up to give him the key to their new place and as its rond the corner fromt he pub we pop by to see it. afterwards we say goodbye and i head home. i want to cry, i do cry, a l ittle bit. i buy food on the way home and devour it all in minutes (fighting off the cat who wants some too...) then i spend 20 quiet minutes in the bathroom, making sure my housemates on the floor above don't hear wha i'm doing.

i give myself a nose bleed from the intensity of it, but at least the food is gone. i cant believe i ate it, i had done so well at not eating.

now im in bed and tomorrow is another day and i'll only have the scars on my knockles to show for it

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On June 18th, 2008 03:22 am (UTC), loony_undun replied:
Tabitha! Hey i hope you algo get to start over, just remember what are you working for.

Also... I find it so funny that we're using this community almost like a public but somewhat private place to chat.
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On June 18th, 2008 07:26 pm (UTC), cadburycrazed replied:
haha us three really do use this place as a bit of a private chit chat dont we?! other people should join in more...
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On June 18th, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC), loony_undun replied:
Yeah I know what you mean but hey, if they dont want to join... its ok too. I hope someone feels safe enough to post, though.
And yesssssssssss its our personal chat;D
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On June 18th, 2008 03:14 am (UTC), loony_undun commented:
Kt... I'm sorry you're having a hard time. And we all have slip ups. Buut you can always pick up where you left.:D
You probably binged cause you've been restricting... So maybe maybeee there's a way you can eat normally for a couple of days (not restricting) and see how it goes? I'm not telling you your ed will be gone because thats shit but maybe you'll feel a bit better and wont want to binge as much.
I'm here for you if you want to talk.
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On June 18th, 2008 07:24 pm (UTC), cadburycrazed replied:
Hey hun, in binged because I was upset, seeing George bought back a lot of bad feelings I haven't felt in a while. thank you for caring though, it was lovely to read your messages this morning at work. hope you are ok x
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On June 18th, 2008 08:52 pm (UTC), loony_undun replied:
im sorry you're feeling like this and I already told you that but uhm I just want to help you so so badly. Please take care pf yourself, k?
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